Wednesday, November 12, 2008

The problem with field work

Spending all day outside in the woods, doing fairly repetitive, mindless tasks leaves a person with a great deal of time to think, and very little in the way of external stimulus/distraction/input to break up the thinking.  Sometimes, this is nice.

Other times, you end up spending all day turning something over in your mind, again and again.  And if you're like me and you hold grudges against yourself or get angry at yourself for something, this means you spend all day feeling mad at yourself and spinning your wheels.  Seeing something over and over again in instant replay.  Mountains become mole-hills, mole-hills become Mt. Olympus.  And it's all pretty unproductive, because you can't say which is which, as probably it's all in your head.  But it doesn't stop you from feeling bad.

Today was one of those days.

Aaaand I might have to work saturday and sunday.  Aaaand my boss is depressed.


Eugenie said...

I love how we still manage to have shitastic days simultaneously even if we're miles and miles apart... :-(

sarcozona said...

You are in need of an ipod. When I've told myself how stupid I am for the third time in a row, I turn on silly music.

Eugenie said...